Just let me be me

soon. see let me tell u. if guys wuld stop thinkin bout fuckn me as soon thy step in my room everything wuld b cool. my mom is my mom even tho dis house is half mines i still dnt want my mom in my business. if i was living on my on ill still b da same way cuz i had a lot guys used me for sex. they tell me they want to be my man and then when i let my guard down and let them in an put my trust into them an fuck them, they wuld be gone the next day and i can't let my guard down no more until i see some effort from a guy. I can be a freak. i can suck a mean dick and i found out my pussy get wetter then most. No i cant walk but its not a disease. you will not catch it. All i want is yall guys to stop lookin at wat i cant do and look at wat can do. TRUST ME I am better then da last and MUCH GREATER then the best........

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A Diary of a diable woman

This is a look in the life and the mind of a disable woman. Her challenges and everyday woes. So I hope you will get something out of her story.

Sept. 23 2009

Dear diary,

today was more harder then yesterday. i feel like my life don't have no purpose. i can't get no job because i draw government and I don't have no friends because nobody won't give me a chance. Don't have a boyfriend because all they see is the outside and not the person within. All i meet is 1 day guys or i will tell you what you want to hear until i get what i want guys. I'm so tired of my life. why me? Why do i have to be like this? Why i have to miss out on driving, dating, taking my own bath, going to the movies, having guys flirt with me or having a job? Was i curse in my past life? Did i do something really bad then that i'm paying for it now? Sometimes i wish i was dead. that way i wouldn't go through all these things. I would be happier if i could talk clearer. I wouldn't care about being in the wheelchair if i can just talk right but i can't. Well diary i'm going to end right here. thanks


i felt that a lot before i realize i don't need to be the same as everybody. I love being different. I love being me and who ever don't like it oh well you don't have to be in my world. Don't let the world get you down.

If you are tall, short, skinny, fat, handicap or whatever don't let the media, tv shows, rap or any kind of videos get to you. love being different. Love being you. Don't stress over what you don't have or what you can't do because i learned it don't matter god will see you through.

I hope you take a little bit from this and compared it to your life and i hope you will be more open minded to people that is different from you.

I'm me

A lot people looks at me like i don't know what's right or wrong because i'm in a wheelchair but i got all my senses. I like to go for walks, to tha park, out to eat, to tha movies, shopping, get my hair fixed, parties and to shows. God made me who i am for a reason and until this day i asks why. Why do i have to miss out on a lot of things; Like driving, walking and running. I missed out on my prom because no guy asks me. I'm missing on dating (well not really its half and half lol) well you know what i mean. Don't get me wrong i had some good times lol believe me i have but don't let my flaws override my achievements. I know i'm disable but i'm me. If people just sit down and have a conversation with me then yall would see that. I'm very shy when it comes to meeting new people because i don't know how people gone to react to me. i don't know if they will be comfortable or just be silence. If you are silence then i know you aren't comfortable and thats what makes me uncomfortable. STORY: Ok i met this guy on tagged and we hit it off. i gave him my number to text me so he did. We were texting about 2 weeks and he already want to had sex. So in that time frame we texted and talked and he knew i was in a wheelchair and everything. so i finally told him he could stop by. I told him to bring me a drink lol. So he came and my mom showed him to my room. He came in and said hi put my drink on my dresser and sat down. This motha fucker ain't said one word so i was trying to get him to talk. He would laugh and say "yea" but that was it. right there i knew i wasn't feeling him no more and im hoping he would make an excuse and leave because tha move was gone for me lol. So he made like he was going outside to roll up his windows because he said its looks like it going to rain but he got in his car and just left without a goodbye or kiss my ass or anything lmao and he told me he will be right back lmao. That shit was so funny. I was so glad when he left but i did get a coke lol. See if i lose interest in you then i don't care what you say or do. Just be yourself. Don't be scared to have fun with me. Talk or say something Damn lol

Ok let me tell yall about my mom. Every guy be scared to come over my house because they think she will go off. Look my mom is cool ok and i'm grown ok. She isn't gone to say nothing about me having company. Me and my mom is buying this house together. Its up to me if i don't want you at my house then i don't want you there, simple as that.

I'm not dead or paralyzed ok. I'm still a living, breathing human being. I still a woman with needs and wants ok. I'm still me.

I came to realize

NIGGAZ AIN'T SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL OF MEN AIN'T SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! AND I DON'T CARE WHO GET MAD KISS MY ASS. THATS HOW PEOPLE GET AIDS BECAUSE STUPID ASS PEOPLE CAN'T KEEP IT REAL. TRYING TO FUCK EVERY PUSSY AND EVERY DICK THAT LOOK GOOD. I REALLY THOUGHT I HAD MR. RIGHT THIS TIME I REALLY DID. HE WAS OLD SO I THOUGHT HE AINT GONNA PLAY ME. BULLSHIT LOL I MEAN DAMN I TOLD DIS GUY I DON'T LAY DOWN UNLESS WE WAS TOGETHER. HE ASSURE ME "OH I'M NOT LIKE THOSE NIGGAS YOU HAD" BUT HE WAS. I'M CRYING BECAUSE HE PLAYED ME LIKE I'M RETARDED. LIKE I WAS A HO AND I'M NOT. I TRUSTED HIM AND STARTED LIKE HIM. THIS IS THE THIRD TIME THIS HAPPEN AND BEFORE HIM I DIDN'T DATE NOBODY FOR A YEAR. I HAD SEX WITH MY EX 2 MONTHS AGO BECAUSE I WAS HORNY AS HELL AND HE CAUGHT ME AT THE WRONG TIME LOL. I GIVE UP ON MEN. I WON'T FIND NOBODY FOR ME. THEY ARE GONNA USE ME LIKE HE DID BUT I JUST GONNA LIVE MY LIFE AND JUST BE HAPPY. RIGHT NOW I FEEL BAD. I WISH I CAN TAKE A SPILL AND CHANGED HOW GOD MADE ME BUT I CAN'T MAYBE YALL GUYS WONT HURT ME NOMORE. I LOOK AT OTHER GIRLS ON TAGGED AND ENVY THEM BECAUSE THEY GOT THEY PICKS BUT ME LOL YEA

Run lil Dog run

I did it again! I let a man inside my world and hurt me. I thought we was gone be good friends but like a damn fool i let my lust take over. Now hes off to the next bitch on tagged and i'm here broken hearted again. I guess handicap women or people can't find love just people that wanna used them. I would put him on BLASTED so every female can watch out for him but i'm not like that. God will take care of him best to believe that. I think i'm a good woman. I got my own house even tho my mom a staying with me, its my house i'm buying it. i'm making and have my own. i don't need a man for shit. Just the dick and dats it. All he had to do was to be honest thats it. Is that to much to asks? tell me. I'm leaving tagged because i'm tired of this. Ain't no REAL MEN left so i give up. So if you wanna stay in contact with me let me know and to that guy i'm gone put you in my folder i called BITCHES so if i have anything from YOU and I kno who i got it from. Because you ain't no man YOU ARE BITCH!

I Changed my mind i'm not leaving i'm just not looking for a guy on here. Fuck him he can removed me i don't care. You the one ducking and hiding so why should i leave, huh? You the one wasn't man enough. Running like a lil BITCH! Yea i got you. Why are you running????? Huh

Haterz better regonize

I love to write and express my feeling thru my writing. I can't speak well but my writing ppl cn see into my world. I hold many hats. Don't under estimate me cuz I'm different. I love to be different. I cnt walk so wat I can point. I cnt tlk clearly so wat I cn type. I used to be shy and didn't wanna be around ppl cuz society made me dat way but god made me realize dat who cares wat othas say I kno u n I luv you the way you are. I made you like this for a reason n I dnt make mistakes. God told me dat n made me see dat I'm rare n unique and I'm one of a kind and he didn't make nobody like me. Now I kno I dnt gotta hide. I dnt have to used fake pics I cn be me n if any1 dnt Like it o well stuff titties. Yal dnt have to be something dat ur not. Be wat god made u to be "yourself". God will never mess up!